may 2017 mixtape

It has been nearly three months since my last playlist, and I do apologise. My music taste has not changed much, I still enjoy some of the same songs from February. However, I have found a lot of other great music too. I didn’t really have a theme for this month, but I associate these songs with heartbreak, as I was going through heartbreak when I discovered them. Rookie error. Oh well, I hope you enjoy.

  • Breaking Free — Night Riots
  • Don’t Wanna Be Your Girl — Wet
  • Hometown Girl — ZHU
  • Memory — Parade of Lights
  • Don’t Cry, 2020 — COIN
  • Stay — Coasts
  • Your Shirt — Chelsea Cutler
  • I Like Me Better — Lauv
  • Fool’s Gold — Dagny (feat. BØRNS)
  • Craving — James Bay
  • Meet Me in the Hallway — Harry Styles
  • Out of Mind — Magic Man
  • Wasted — Virginia to Vegas
  • Hannah — COIN
  • To You Alone — Tom Rosenthal
  • Bloodflood — alt-J
  • Use Somebody — Kings of Leon
  • Talk Too Much — COIN

And that is it. If you notice that COIN features more than once, I would like to recommend that you listen to their new album ‘You Will Never Know If You Don’t Try’. Genuinely, their music has been getting me through this harder time in my life, and it is also great dancing party music.

Yours truly,


Modern Heartbreak? Is it even a thing? Well, yes. And it sucks.

Modern heartbreak is a thing I have recently become very familiar with. I think it is definitely one of the most consuming heartbreaks there is. It consumes you in a way that you constantly refresh your Facebook or Instagram feed to see if your ex-lover has posted something new. It’s going onto their profile to ensure that you haven’t missed anything that they may have posted. It’s your heart breaking a little bit more each time, when you notice that they tag other girls on Facebook posts now.

Modern heartbreak is visiting all the old spots you two used to visit together; hoping you will cross paths with them again, and hoping that as soon as they see you, they will realise what a big mistake they made. But it’s also knowing that this isn’t reality. Reality is that they’re over you now, but it’s just taking you a little longer to get over them.

Modern heartbreak is swiping through your camera roll and looking at all the pictures of you two together or of the pictures you took of them, and wondering where it all went wrong, because once upon time, you were both really happy with each other. It’s making the decision of whether to delete the pictures or to keep them as a constant reminder of what could of been, but was not. At least anymore is not.

Modern heartbreak is everywhere and everyone sees it. It’s not easily escapable, or easily covered up. Everyone sees it and it never goes away. Everyone notices when your profile changes from “in a relationship” to “it’s complicated” to “single”. Everyone notices when you stop tagging your lover in entertaining Facebook posts. Everyone notices when your lover’s presence vanishes from your Instagram page. But that is what modern heartbreak is; it is the kind of heartbreak everyone feels and everyone sees, and you just can’t simply ignore it.

Modern heartbreak is calling your tired love, six months later, drunk; leaving a voicemail speaking of how much you miss them, and not getting a call or even a message from them. Modern heartbreak is picking yourself up and deciding you deserve better. You deserve someone who cares about how you feel. It’s creating a Tinder account for the first time, because although as much as you don’t want to give in to modern dating, you believe it’s your last shot at finding someone to kiss you goodnight. It’s swiping through Tinder profiles, and then coming across your tired love’s profile. It’s your heart falling to your stomach. It’s you swiping right, regardless of how much your brain was telling your heart to swipe left.

It’s looking back at your matches on the hour every hour for one week and then finally accepting they’re over you, and you too, need to get over them. It’s realising how dumb you must have been to think they’d swipe right on you. Why would they? You’re over. You were a thing, it didn’t work out and now you’re two strangers again with bittersweet memories.

And once you have realised it; the next step is to accept it.

february 2017 mixtape

These are the songs that I kept on replay throughout February. If you decide to give any of these songs a listen, I hope you find enjoyment in at least one of them. If not, I am sorry… that you don’t have superior music taste, like myself. Just joking.

The theme for February was redamancy, as it is the month of love and all, so here goes:

And that is all. Some of these tunes may repeat in mixtapes to come, as they are just too good to let go after only one month. I have also taken it upon myself to link each song to its respective youtube video (if the song was on youtube), so it is easier for you to give it a listen.

– sleepydarling

hi, it’s me. welcome to my world.

Since I can remember, I have wanted to start a blog. I continued to put it off again and again and again. However, I finally decided to actualise my wish and start one. My blog was not created to portray immaculate language or to talk about things that do not interest me, just to obtain a great following. My blog was created as a platform, for myself, where I can share my thoughts and ideas and opinions on topics that interest and affect and bother me.

My grammar and use of language may not always be the best. But maybe that’s how my blog will show it’s authenticity: through not-so-perfect grammar and poor use of adjectives.

Hopefully, however, you challenge me on my thoughts and opinions and help me think further or differently about things I feel certain about and make me second guess myself.

I am excited for this new journey.

– sleepydarling